I've never really written anything about how my heart was broken two and a half years ago. Nothing intended to be seen by anyone but me and God, anyway. However, God spoke some very clear things to me tonight as I laid down to sleep, and I couldn't quiet my mind long enough to rest until I got it out on paper. I feel very deeply that this message is intended for someone, and so... I will write. And I will be vulnerable. Much more vulnerable than I am comfortable with. But God can work through vulnerability. When I stay silent is when my pain becomes nothing more than pain. The following is a story about how I found God's grace in the midst of a broken heart.
To the Pastor of the Small Church:
I see you.
You're my friend. You're my colleague. You're my co-laborer. And secretly, you're one of my heroes. Maybe that last statement seems odd to you. Give me a moment to explain.
2017. Another year has come and gone and I find myself sitting on the floor of my apartment asking myself, "What was 2016 all about?" In the glow of my Christmas tree that I have yet to put away, I ask: What did I learn? How did I grow? What could I have done better? What did I do well? I pull out my fancy spiral bound notebook that has the words "Dream Big" written on the cover. Its the place that I write down prayers, dreams, hurts, and hopes. I begin to search the pages of the notebook that has a very detailed chronology of 2016. I smile big as I relive the moments of God's faithfulness. I let the caverns of my heart ache a little as I remember the seasons of grief. I turn to a fresh page and I begin to make a timeline of the previous year. I write down the highlights (good and bad) of each month. And I begin to pray.
Hi! My name is Stephanie, and I'm the girl behind this blog! I'm a pastor and a writer and a lover of all things chocolate. As you browse the content on this page, I hope you find yourself encouraged and smiling. At some moments, perhaps you would even shed a tear or two. Most importantly, I pray you find hope in whatever season you're walking through. We are in this journey together, and my calling is to encourage you along the way!